You have to go back.
Not until I catch the big wave.
Wait.
Wait for what?
Swim!
And then you just...
...fall.
- Fall? - Dive.
You make up your mind to do it...
...and you do it.
And when you wake up, you're...?
Yes.
To smell the air.
Taste water.
Read a newspaper.
To lie.
Through your teeth.
To feed the dog.
Touch her hair.
What are you waiting for?
There is so much beauty up here.
Yes.
Here you are again.
We'll release your friend Messinger tomorrow.
That's good.
His family's having a kind of a welcome-home party.
Will you be going?
This is Earl.
He told me.
What else does he tell you?
He worries that you never sleep. And he loves to see you smile.
Sometimes I think Earl's the only one who understands me.
What about your boyfriend?
Do you love him?
Love? I don't know.
What does that mean?
I was hoping you could tell me.
It's a word...
...that describes a chemical react...
It's just crap. I'm full of crap.
I wait all day, just hoping for one more minute with you...
...and I don't even know you.
What do you want to know?
Why you wear the same clothes all the time.
Why won't you give me your phone number?
Are you married?
No.
Are you homeless?
No.
Are you a drummer?
Why don't you ever touch me?
I don't want to hurt you.
You won't hurt me.
Did you feel that?
If I could make you understand...
I understand.
I'll see you around.
Hey, Doc!
No, give me the whole package. Come here.
- Hi. - Thanks for coming.
You look great.
Is this heaven?
Look at this.
Come on, let's meet some people.
You got an appetite?
Have a beer, Seth.
Where you from?
Up.
North. Uh, Canada.
Listen. Can you hear?
I'm growing.
Smile, Hannah.
How long have you known Seth?
Not very long.
But I feel like I've known him forever.
Honey, that hurts.
You're just like Grandpa.
Come on.
Let's see if the cookies are done.
Come on, Seth.
- Can I help you? - Yeah, great.
How did you two meet?
He works with me over at the site. Construction work.
I thought he was a messenger.
Yeah, he's one of those...
...hyphenates.
I'll be right back.
Here, can you cut this up?
So in what province in Canada were you born?
I wasn't born in Canada.
What are your parents' names?
No parents.
You have very delicate hands for a construction worker.
I'm not a construction worker.
Very pale hands. Let me see.
- Why did you do that? - Let me see your hand.
No.
What's your last name?
You know my last name.
I don't.
Plate.
Seth Plate?
I cut you.
I cut you with that knife. I felt it go in. You felt it.
Not the way you do.
The way I do? What does that mean?
You mean the way a doctor does? The way a woman does? What?
The way...
...a human does.
I have no sense of touch.
You feel that?
Don't be frightened.
You freak!
You liar!
Who... What are you?
I came to take Mr. Balford...
...and I saw you.
I couldn't take my eyes off you.
How you fought for him.
And you looked right at me...
...like I was a man.
- To take Mr. Balford? - I was there.
- We're always there in every room. - What are you talking about?
I was there in the stairwell...
...when you cried for your patient.
And I touched you. Remember?
Why are you doing this?
Because I'm in love with you.
I don't believe you.
Do you feel that?
You don't want to believe me.
I cannot conceive of it!
Just get out!
Get out!
Doctor?
Hello?
Seth?
Are you here?
I want to see you.
Let me see you.
Just stay.
Just stay until I fall asleep.
Oh, yes!
Thank you.
The baby can't sleep.
Has anyone ever seen the baby sleep?
I don't know. Let's check him out.
Choanal atresia.
There's hardly any air getting through.
How did you know?
I just...
...knew!
Maggie?
Yeah.
Are you alone?
Yeah.
Pretty intuitive call on the baby.
Think so?
I couldn't have done it better.
Well, that's a compliment.
What are you doing?
I'm spending time with you.
Will you marry me?
We can finally get up to Tahoe.
Get married on the Nevada side...
...honeymoon and be back before we miss a case.
What do you want me to do? Get down on my knees?
What do you want me to say?
We belong together.
We're the same species.
I'm not very good at matters of the heart. I mean...
...the proverbial heart.
Please be my wife.
Just think about it.
Breathe in.
I'm good.
I don't understand a God who would let us meet, if we could never be together.
He didn't tell you.
Tell me what?
Maybe you should ask him.
No, I'm asking you.
Seth knows no fear...
...no pain...
...no hunger.
He hears music in the sunrise.
But he'd give it all up.
He loves you that much.
I don't understand.
He can fall.
He can give up his existence as he knows it.
He can give up eternity and become...
...one of us.
It's up to you.
How do you know this?
Because I did it.
Seth, I need to talk to you.
Seth, please.
Please be here.
God, help me through this.
You are so beautiful.
You'll always be that way.
Jordan asked me to go away with him...
...and get married.
He knows me.
He knows the demands of my work.
You don't love him.
He and I are the same.
And I want that.
And I want somebody who can feel my hand when I touch him.
But you can feel me.
You felt me.
I want to say goodbye.
I don't want to see you again.
Hey, buddy.
You can't be in here.
Do you see me?
Can you see me?
We can see you.
Is this blood?
This is blood!
Is it red?
Red?
Is it red?
Color.
What color were the drugs you took?
Better get your butt out of here.
You got somewhere to go?
Maggie.
Down and down and down I go
Round and round and round I go
Round and spin
Loving the spin I'm in
Loving that old black magic...
...called love
Love!
Hi!
I was wondering if you could tell me how to get to the county hospital?
Can I help you, sir?
I'll just take a moment to catch my breath.
Breath!
Maggie Rice.
Are you a patient?
No. I just need to find her, please.
You'll have to call her office. Someone there can help you.
Do you know where she is?
No, sir, I do not know where she is.
You have this computer...
...and all this technology. Can't you look her up?
Where's Maggie?
So you're a friend of Maggie's?
What happened to you?
Sorry.
It's okay.
I fell.
Evidently. Off a train?
I fell in love.
Please help me find her.
She went to Lake Tahoe. Her uncle has a cabin on the Nevada side.
Wait!
Cassiel.
Are you there?
Hello.
Where you headed?
Tahoe!
Reno!
Tahoe!
I'm going to Reno.
I'm going to Tahoe.
Hop in. We'll figure it out when we get there.
Am I too late?
Too late?
Jordan?
I couldn't marry Jordan.
I'm in love with you.
What happened?
Free will.
I feel you.
Do you feel that?
Yes.
And that?
How's it feel? Tell me what it feels like.
I can't.
Try.
Warm.
Aching.
It's okay.
We fit together.
I know.
We were made to fit together.
I always asked the dying what they liked best about living.
Wrote it down in my book.
This is it.
This is what I like best.
You haven't even started yet.
We have our whole lives together.
You and me.
Mr. And Mrs. Plate.
- I'll get help. - You're here.
- Stay. - I should get help.
Don't go. The driver went.
Please stay.
Please stay with me.
I'm scared.
I screwed up.
I wanted to show you everything.
You will.
You came all this way.
I'm sorry.
God, no, Maggie!
To touch you...
...and to feel you.
To be able to hold your hand right now.
You know what that means?
Do you know how much I love you?
Keep looking at me, okay?
Look right in my eyes.
Someone's out there.
Don't look at them. Please don't you look at them!
Is this what happens?
Yes.
This is what happens.
I'm not afraid.
When they ask me...
...what I liked the best...
...I'll tell them...
...it was you.
God!
I can't see you, but I know you're there.
I'm sorry.
Get out.
Was it you? Were you the one? Were you there?
No.
Why did He do this?
I don't know.
Because her number was up?
What do you want me to say?
- Am I being punished? - You know better than that.
That's life.
You're living now.
And one day...
...you'll be dying.
What's it like?
What?
Warmth.
It's wonderful.
If you'd known this was going to happen...
...would you have done it?
I would rather have had...
...one breath of her hair...
...one kiss of her mouth...
...one touch of her hand...
...than an eternity without it.
One.